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Something off the top of my brain

             So much pain all around me, coming closer, invading my world. They mock me for thinking that I can hide this, a thing so black and white in a world of greys. They have no idea of the nature of this beast; no more than I do, but no less.

            One sorrow to each pleasure, if only for the sake of flavor. The spice often overwhelms the mild taste of the fruit; the initial desire is forgotten, spoiled. Brushing against heaven, then falling to hell. That is the way of our existence, to pay the equivalent Toll for every moment in our lives. Pain for joy, loss for gain, failure for achievement, damnation for victory. The charge is dictated by way of simply being what we are. Completely, unconditionally inescapable. Death is not highest price to be paid, or to be paid for. Many of my kind have paid with innumerable worldly raptures for the subtle joy of a liberating death, only to be eventually granted a fate far less merciful.

            I have the paid the highest price. The magnitude of it is continuously presses against my sentience. It is impossible to cheat the balance of the unchanging toll. The beast I bargained for is immensely strong, capable of postponing the effects of the Toll for a time, but is absolutely incapable of overcoming it. In time, it will be violently torn from existence for its favor, and I will have an eternity to correct a balance that I have permanently damaged.  

            For now, I am granted a time of very temporary escape, a time without compensation for pleasures or sorrows alike. A short span, but enough to see my plans follow through.

            I have five years.